I just don't know

I'm back in Melbourne..currently doing Gen Med/Aged Care placement..which is rather boring...well I guess it's not if you know your stuff but for someone like me...I would pass as a 3rd yr, but definitely not a final...I hate answering I don't know...not having the skills to filter the information...what's important, what's not, what needs to be documented...& not having these skills makes me look really bad...I have to ask the interns/reg..what's the plan again??n she would say, "what did i say just now?you're gonna be an intern next year, you should be able to do this..."
n gen med patients always have multiple comorbidities...I find it difficult to put everything together & not to mix up everything..
n I'm bad with phone calls, referral bla bla bla....or coordinating with the nurse about the patient's care...

I try to comfort myself by saying that I don't have the mind of a physician n I'm bad with pharmacology..that's why I'm struggling..I'll do better in surgery...but the truth is I don't know..it doesn't mean that I like anatomy, I should be good in surgery..(not that I'm that good in anat either)..
So what if when I'm on my surgical placement n still struggling? Whereelse can I go?What other excuses can I make?

Oh by the way, the only good thing being a fifth year is that the reg is keen on teaching the 3rd yrs..so she likes to throw questions to them, thinking that a fifth yr like me should know about it...so I'm off the hook..

The only thing I'm good at is counting days or weeks...2 weeks down in Aged Care-Gen Med, 4 weeks left = 2/3 left... which will be 1/2 in a week's time, n 1/3 in 2 weeks' time....
We have 5 modules in Aged Care...1 is done...4 left!

Then I'll be going to ED, heard that ED is pretty fun...that's something to look forward to, I need hope 'cause that's what keeps me going...please Allah, give me the courage..