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It has been more than a week since my last post.
I love writing on a tangent lately so I'd better not putting any title to this one..

It's almost 3 weeks I'm doing paediatrics...haven't done much at all..haven't even been to ward rounds!!I'm going tomorrow!!(Jon, who shud go with me tomorrow isn't going, so I'm considering...if he didn't then I'd be left all by myself..n I hate being put on the spot by the doctors)

I don't think I'll specialise in paediatrics...I don't think I'll ever gonna be able to finish reading all those books...there's so much u need to know...but I'm thinking of paediatrics surgery...I went to paediatrics surgery outpatients the other day with Jon and we sat in the consultation room with a retired paeds surgeon, Mr Justin Kelly...He was really nice, he loves to make jokes, tell stories and he taught us a lot...the 4 hours spent with him worth 1 week of tutes..I think he's almost 80y/o and he was only there because Mr Robert Stunden was on unpaid sabbatical leave..(Sabbatical leave is an extended period away from work to pursue study or other developmental opportunities to maintain motivation and expertise)..well anyway, (see...I'm going off at a tangent again) I think paeds surgery is interesting, U get to see babies, kids & adolescents....U don't always have to put ur scalpel on all your patients..U'll do things that will make a whole lot of difference to the kids' life..they'll thank you for the rest of their life..U don't deal with smokers, junkies...n there aren't as many surgical things with paeds anyway...u do refer them to other surgeons...One interesting conclusion I made is paeds surgeon would lost counts on how many genitals they've had their hands on...there are many things can go wrong with testicles...hahah..I'm thankful I'm a girl!!

Hmm...last week I met up with AJ...a friend from STF who were on holiday...we weren't the best of friends back then but I do like meeting up with my old friends that I made the effort to organise a dinner with Gge, Sujai, Aishah & Messa (yup2..there are 5 of us STF9802 in Melbourne)...but only Gge n Sujai made it..we had a filling dinner at Blok M and after AJ left, we had some hot chocolates & desserts at San Churro & as when I thought I could head home (I live in a suburb while they are all city people), Sujai expressed her wish to go to Nandos...we headed there and had chicken wings and fries...




I have a case presentation next Wednesday so I guess I have to go to the ward rounds tomorrow...I need to look for a case!please let there be some interesting cases on the wards or the ED...

Nerd

Kalo laaa sy seorang nerd...kan ke best...x yah pk2 nk study ke x?...study je tros..x yah pk ade tute ke x arinih?...tros je pegi hospital..kalo dr tanye pape soalan, x yah pk2 dah,x yah blakon mcam tgh berpk...direct je bleh jwb...sbb sy kan nerd...sure sy dh abes bace sume buku2 yg sy pinjam kat library tuh...

tp malangnye, (sy hanya merancang, tuhan yg menentukan)...sbb sy manusia yg suke merancang, jd sy asek merancang je utk jd nerd..tp x pnah berjaye...sy slalu ckp, before start buat paeds, sy nk abeskan bace sume buku2 paeds...WTH???camane tah sy bleh terpk nk wat statement tuh..bukan skali..byk kali sy ckp camtuh...kesannye, asek2 ade je org quote statement yg sy pnah buat tuh...how unrealistic I can be?macam laa x knal diri sendiri nih macam mane...dh 23 thn idop pon stil xtau success rate dlm sy punye plan2 utk blaja bersungguh2 nihh...isyhh...kenape sy buat medicine??nih soalan yg paling slalu ditanyekan kepade med student...jawapan standard sy,"sy go with the flow je.."...hmm...sbb sbenar adalah....mase time SPM tuh sy sgt risau kalo sy x dpt A1 bio...rase mmg impossible aa utk berjaya jwb soalan2 tuh..lgpon byk soalan sy tinggal teros...sy mmg macam tuh, kalo x tau jwpn sy tinggal je...mmg sy xde aa nk tembak2 nih...sbb tuh x suke soalan subjektif...kalo ade soalan subjektif camtuh slalunye sy bleh bajet aa akan dpt markah around bape...sbb mmg akan jwb ape yg sy tahu je..(mmg xde cikgu yg ajar student utk tinggal jwpn kosong kalo x tau)...berbalik kepade cerite SPM bio tuh,sy pon berjanji, kalo sy miraculously dpt A1, sy akan dengar kate mak sy kalo die suro sy buat med...hahahha...vague laa jugak senanye...of course laa mak sy x kan pakse sy buat med...tp sy tahu that's what she wants...lgpon sy pecaye kalo kite dgr kate our parents, insyaAllah jln kite akan dimudahkan..

rupe2nye best jugak tules merapu2 nih..flight of ideas...ala2 manic sket nih..hahahah

So today is Easter Tuesday which is a university holiday but not a public holiday...sy pon ikot je laa jejak langkah kwn2 sy yg x pegi hospital arinih....since dr smalam sy berazam utk memulakan aktiviti pembalajaran...jd sy pon in denial laa....sy tdo je dlm duvey tuh,x bgn2...walopon sy sbenarnye bleh dgr diorg sume bercerite...dgr sarah bergayot ngan paih...dgr asma' bertanye,"muni nih x nk bgn ke?"

anyway, plan sy harinih adelah utk menyiapkan 3 directed learning activities(DLA)....Audiology, Abdominal Pain (surgery) n apetah satu lg topic tuh....pastu sy nk go through the paediatric clinical examination made easy tuh...sbb esok ade Clinical bedside tute(CBT)..pastu sy pon blom buat lg HSM nye task (Health Service Management & Policy)...benci2...x suke laa management2 nih..tp sedar2 dlm2 sy berfacebook, main Mafia Wars....mase berlalu dgn pantas...sedar2 dh asar...sempat ke nk buat sume nih??

other than that, sy ingat lepas nih nk cube menjalani gaya hidup yg sihat...
1) Tido: sy nk bgn awal..(tp arinih x leh start tdo awal lg sbb td bgn tdo lmbt sgt..nih kene start progressively)...let's say kalo bgn pkol 6...sempat laa smayang, n then jogging 3 round padang...mandi...pastu bleh take my own sweet time utk bersiap2...xde aa rushing2...smp pakai tudung pon selebet2..dlm bas br nk btolkan...n bile smp hospital nmpk laa muke x fresh...muke bgn tdo yg sgt dull...kalo sy bgn awal, sy ade cukup mase utk pakai makeup sket2...at least nmpk laa ceria sket..xde aa nmpk x ikhlas je pegi hospital tuh...lgpon koleksi makeup sy tuh boleh dikatekan tidak bergerak...malahan ade je tambahan2...ini satu pembaziran yg harus dihentikan!!pastu mase kat dlm bus tuh bleh laa sy bace2 buku paeds sket, x de laa sebok nk tdo or btolkan2 tudung etc...
2) DLA: tiap2 ari sy akan bace 2 DLAs...termasuk laa notes yg org lain buat n referencenye skali (ahahahhahaha...possible ke tuh)
3) Patients: time sy kat hospital tuh...sy nk practise interviewing & examining the kids n their parents...n kalo ade kes yg sy x familiar, balk rumah tros check dlm buku...n then sy akan study diorgnye developmental milestones..sy akan make sure utk pegi at least either one of the special care nursery or the paediatric ward...
4) Tute: sy akan attend sume tutes yg ade..n sy akan contribute...pastu sy akan volunteer aa skali skale kalo dr suro buat pape (hhahaha..ye laa sgt)
5) Signatures: I'll try to do all the procedures n tasks tuh mase kat frankston (maknenye ade 2 weeks n a half aa lg nih)..nnt time sy kat Monash Medical Centre (MMC) xde laa sy struggling nk carik patients etc..maybe bende2 yg mmg xde opportunity langusng utk buat kat frankston br sy akan leave it till I'm at MMC..
6) Mengaji: nih satu lg bende yg sy mmg x consistent...kalo bulan puase kompem satu juzuk sehari...tp kalo bulan2 biase nih..bace pon x...maybe seminggu skali kot..sy nye memory pon dh makin lemah..sume surah2 yg I used to memorise mmg dh x bape ingt...apart from that, dah lame dh bercite2 nk hafal juz amma..tp x buat2 gak...other surahs yg mmg supposedly dh hafal pon sudah keciciran...inikan pule juz amma....hopefully before start ramadhan this yr sy bleh bace tanpe tersangkut2 or melompat dr satu ke surah yg lain (nih sshnye bile byk syat same dlm al-Quran nih) sume surah2 juz amma n other 8 surahs lain yg pnah dihafal satu ketika dahulu...
7) Diet: lately, kerana kemalasan, sy sungguh malas utk masak veggies...padahal bleh je makan carrots raw..tp tuh pon sy x buat..tau2 jebile lapar tuh x bleh tahan dh..tros makan dgn lahapnye...

tuh je yg sy pk skang nih....I'm sure ade byk lg...

honestly, sy sungguh x sabar utk menghabiskan the remaining 2 and a half weeks kat Frankston..sungguh x berminat utk hangout ngan rakan2 di frankston yg hampir kesemuanye nerd!!

Ok Moony...sudah2 laa merapu di blog ini...buat laa bende2 productive sket...ade 3DLAs yg nk buat today kan...

kawan2 sume, kalo korang nmpk aku membuang mase jwb quiz kat facebook ke, korang perli2 laa aku....korang ckp cannih,"Moony, ko sure ke bleh pass sem nih?nk ke extend setahun lg?x dpt pengajaran lg ke tgk org2 repeat women's n children's health tuh?"ok...ok...please korang...(walopon ade je probability aku serabut ngan reminder korang lalu aku pon invi kat ym...ahahah..tp korang kan true friends..kene laa bersabar...saling menasihati...)

PS: senanye kalo half of this tercapai pon dh kire satu kejayaan besar bg aku...

Easter Break

A long and unproductive weekend is almost over...

Good Friday (10th April)
I didn't do much apart from waking up late...went to Video Ezy...n watch a movie or 2 that night...

Easter Saturday (11th April)
Since all of us are broke...we thought of activities that would be practically free...n we came up with picnicking! We went to Enchanted Maze at Arthurs Seat which was almost 1hr from where we live...We had a great fun picnicking & getting lost in the maize maze...

11th April is also my mom's 52nd birthday...I felt really bad as I haven't sent her birthday card which I bought almost 2 weeks ago!!!but we talked for almost 50mins that night...I missed her so much..she's been working hard more than ever...I really hope she'll take things easy..If only I can live with mom, and listen to her problems at work everyday...

Apart from that, my friend Iderque got married on 11th April as well...I envy those STFians who went to her wedding reception..I've been browsing their photos on facebook...everyone looks fabulous...Iderque is the 9th girl in our batch to embark on married life...I wish her well and a blessed marriage...Nadia Salwa, my friend who got married in Dec 2005 is apparently carrying her 2nd baby now...at 24??I might be 30++ by the time I reached her stage of life..hahahha...Hanez & Iffah are other 2 preggers in our batch at the moment...yes2...these people made us all looked like we're very much left behind....

Easter Sunday (12th April)
Someone came up with the idea of going for a picnic again n that's what we ended up doing yesterday..we googled some parks at Dandenong Ranges..and decided to go to this one called Alfred Nicholas Gardens..our picnic was interrupted when there was a dog coming towards us...we left the park as soon as we can...


We paid Video Ezy another visit last night and rented 8 dvds...We watched 3 movies that night...I finally doze off at 4am...after watching Kite Runner...there were 3 of us left at that time...Kite Runner is my favourite book of all time...Effah n me couldn't contain our tears especially watching loyal, innocent Hassan was sodomised...the movie totally left us teary-eyed...I highly recommend this movie to anyone...it was really moving...as any other book that was filmed, everyone would say that the book was even better but if U don't like to read books, watching the movie is good enough..

Easter Monday (13th April)
We watched movies that we rented from Video Ezy last night and at about noon...Effah suggested for another picnic....ahahahahha...this time...we hit the beach...Brighton Beach...



That's the end of my weekend...I need to get back to studying pretty soon...but am still in denial....

Tagged by Kak Long Yaya

1. Put up ur profile picture


2. Elaborate on it

This photo of Fernando Alonso's car was taken at F1 ING Australian GP on 6th of March 2008 using my old Sony DSC-60. This is my first GP. I never thought watching from very few angle would be as fun. After going to this GP, I'm planning to go to other GPs whenever I can, be it in Melbourne or Sepang.

3. Why do i choose this photo

Well actually I created this blog so that I can post comments to my friend's blog and I never thought that I would become an avid blogger one day, hence the blog title - MalasMenulisBlog. I didn't think much when choosing which picture to put & I don't intend to publish my photo on a blog that I don't intend to write anything in it. That's why I just put a picture of my favourite F1 driver+his car...

4. Tag next 5 person

Hmm...I'm tagging Koyan, Hiswani, Ijah, Syorre, SyikinFad, Dayen...ops..that's 6...who cares??

Guilty

that's how I feel right now...(well...for the past 5 hours)...
I should have wake up earlier...I shouldn't keep on sleeping when I look at the clock & it was 830am...or I wouldn't risk falling asleep till it was 910am..so that's what happened this morning..I missed the 915am bus(the next one is 1115am)...as usual, when I didn't wake up at the time that I intended to, my coping strategy wouldn't be getting up from the bed and making use of the time I have left...instead, I continued sleeping...(even when I already had 8hrs of sleep)...until it was 1055am...n I'm bound to miss another bus...I was frustrated with my stupidity...n it took sometime for me to recover from that and hence I missed the bus again....
Now when I look back at what happened, I think I should have just quickly take a power shower, get dressed and run to the bus loop....(it usually take 13mins to get to the bus loop)....but at least I should have tried....I'm pretty good at getting dressed in a blink of an eye...I would have made it...even if I don't, at least I've put some effort..I wouldn't end up feeling guilty all day...and now I'm worried about my attendance...I know Gila is not coming because she has her Jewish holiday but me, I don't have a valid reason...oversleeping & missing the bus twice is definitely unacceptable!!!

New rotation

it has been almost a week since my last entry...i've been thinking of what to write almost every day when I'm out of the house but didn't get to do the writing itself when I'm home..instead, I play Mafia Wars...and I organize my life around it...e.g: I postpone my bedtime in order to wait for the energy or stamina needed to get into the next level...I wouldn't go to sleep because the next time I wake up, I would have too many energy which would go wasted as I only need a few more..all the energy & stamina will be refilled once I get to a new level...(I know2...I'm being stupid...but this is me...that's what I do when I'm addicted to something)



I'm starting on a new rotation this week..I will be doing paediatrics for the next 9 weeks...(good bye vaginas, uterus, breasts etc)..I'm attached to Frankston hospital which is very new to me..I'm pretty scared as I'm not familliar with the hospital, my newgroupmates and as much as I love kids, I'm not sure if I'm competent to communicate with children..I wouldn't be worried talking to them in Malay but I have a limited vocabulary when it comes to colloquial English...



I'm gonna continue writing this entry in Malay (so much for wanting to improve my English) as aku nk bercerite pasal bdak2 yg buat rotation same ngan aku nih....in case kalo diorg google name diorg sendirik n terjumpe plak aku punye blog...aku just nk tules ape 1st impression aku terhadap diorg...kitorg sume skali ade 6 org...Jon, Vik, Gila, Jess, Kush & aku...

1) Jon: mat salleh yg kacak, tinggi (6ft 4), suke senyum, peramah, sopan santun & nmpk cam agak laid-back...die mmg jenis yg sgt charming ngan sume org...smp makcik jual coffee kat cafe tuh pon bleh knal die (last yr die attached to this hospital gak)...die juge sgt gentleman, mmg jenis yg akan bukakkan pintu & suro ppuan sume jln dulu...aku yakin the nurses wouldnt give him a hard time!

2)Vik: mamat nih Indian...so far aku x berjaye lg utk suke kat mamat nih..let's see if perception aku akan berubah...die pon tinggi gak (6ft+)..sopan santun tp jenis yg nmpk cam lembut...mmg nmpk x macho abes aa...gelak pon ala2 ppuan...die agak dikenali aa dlm batch kitorg sbb die jenis yg suke mencapub & involve dlm med student nye clubs...aku pnah ade experience yg x bape best sgt ngan die, mase aku tgk org bersalin anak kembar tuh die dtg menyebok...pastu since aku dok kat dlm suite dr pkol 8am n die plak pkol 1pm br dtg, doctor tuh suro aku stay...die plak cam bengang sbb aku yg dpt tgk lalu die mintak ngan aku bleh x aku tgk 1st twin & die tgk second...ape barang???ade plak nk share camtuh..mane der org blaja sparuh2...of course laa aku terpakse setuju...pastu the next day aku dgr sorang bdak med nih bercerite pasal incident aku ngan Vik kat delivery suite tuh...maybe die bercerite sbb die bengang ngan doctor (bukan ngan aku) yg x kasik 2 org med students in the suite at one time tp still aku x bape suke aa...pastu plak bile aku jumpe si Vik nih again kat Frankston die cam kerek plak ngan aku...bile kitorg tukar2 no hp, die x bother pon nk amek no aku...maybe because die malas nk kuarkan hp n no org lain sume die dh ade..tp still...kesimpulannye aku mmg x suke aa kat die...

3)Gila: seorang minah yahudi (Y) yg paling lebai aa dlm semua minah2 Y dlm batch aku...ramai org x suke kat die sbb die jenis yg suke bertanye smp menyebabkan tute abes lambat...aku x pnah same tute ngan die lg sblom nih....tp aku dgr die mmg baik pon..cume aku mmg syak wasangka terhadap kaum itu...stakat nih die mmg paling byk berckp ngan aku...among the girls aku paling suke die aaa..

4)Jess: sorang lg minah Y...ade org kate die agak sombong...maybe sbb muke die kot yg macam kene senyum br nmpk mesra...die nih Y yg x mengamalkan ajaran sgt..baju die pon agak x menutup aurat...x cam Gila yg slalu pakai skirt labuh tuh...ade ke si Gila tuh mintak tukar roster sbb die ade perayaan agama minggu depan, pastu si Jess nih plak volunteer nk ganti..x ke die patot beraye gak...ahahhaha...aku rase ok je kot Jess nih...jumaat nih aku akan pegi paeds surg consultation ngan die..maybe kitorg akan bonding aa kot time tuh..

5)Kush:nih indian gak...or maybe Sri Lankan...minah nih aku pnah same clinical skills tute mase 2nd yr....tp aku x rase die ingt name aku...maybe sbb aku byk skip tute..n time aku dtg die plak skip...aku x bape suke style die ckp gedik2 tuh...pastu plak die baik ngan Vik...

Anyway, nih first aku dok dlm tute bersame ngan ppuan locals n I'm the tallest among the girls...klaka laa jugak tgk dlm our group, the guys sume tinggi2..girls pendek2...




I don't know if paediatrics is my thing or not...we'll see in the next 9 weeks!!

Inspiration

Yesterday I attended the launching of MUSIG (Monash University Surgical Interest Group)...I wasn't successful in persuading my housemates to go but finally Safwan gave in to my persuasiveness...n Safwan managed to get Beh & Hazwan to go as well...yayy!!I wouldn't be going if I don't have any companies...even though the talk wasn't really relevant to me as they were focusing on how to get into surgical training in Australia (as of now, there's about 70% chance that I'm going home after I graduate) but I just feel that I need something to inspire me...something to remind me again of what I should become in the future...
One of the speakers is non other than my tutor, Prof Julian A. Smith, the surgical guru himself (he's like Richard Webber (the chief) in Grey's Anatomy)...Prof Smith's 4th slide was titled "A Career for Woman"....he, as well as other presenters stressed to us that surgery is no more a male territory...women can combine their surgical career with family life and we can also make it to the top...
The program only lasted for one n a half hour but it definitely inspires me....Even though it wasn't my heartiest choice doing medicine in the first place, but I know once I'm in it, there's no turning back...I've been pretty mediocre throughout my medical course...but I don't want to be a mediocre doctor...I should be an outstanding one or none at all!!